“AGAIN” NUMBER 4

I have a friend that can’t separate lies from his life. He said he was too afraid to see what would possibly happen if he’s saying the truth, so it’s better to lie just to make everything alright. By saying that he even lying to himself. I paused for a few seconds… and then I realized He is Me! I’ve been living for almost 32 years in this cynical world by lying. I even lie to God. I TRY to love Him for what He has done for me. I TRY to love Him because I want to go to His Heaven. I still can’t love Him just the way He is. This also goes for everybody around me. I love you because… There’s always been a condition. For me it is so hard to see people especially when you hated him or her. 77x7x7x7x7… that’s not work for me. For me, 2 times top. Three if I am in a good mood. Again there’s always been a condition. As I went home after my meeting with my friend, I’m beginning to learn that if I want to start loving unconditionally I have to start receiving love unconditionally. You will never know a thing until you find it out, feel it, and taste it by yourself. After that I have to take one small step to learn to start loving. What if I fail? Just do it again and again and again and again… until I habituate it.
I just left “again” number 4…