
Yesterday:
Lately, some of my days are gloomy, blue, sad, and anything of terms that you can say about. I love my God... but in times of needed I suddenly lose that feeling... the feeling that I love my God, that I trust Him with all my heart, the feeling that I know that His time is right and always perfect. Then I said to Him, You know God, I know that Your time is right and perfect indeed but in this world what really true is that the world’s time is always right and perfect... but... no answers... I cried... A tender voice said, my child see Me at My house tomorrow.
Today:
I barely open my eyes. I said, God, I still need my rest in sleep. The tender voice said, come, open your eyes for Me, see Me at My house, you need Me to fix your problems don’t you?... I woke up, took bath, dressed up, ignited my car and drove away...
In God’s house:
I bent my knee and sat... and sat... and sat... just sat there on the pew and felt so lonely, felt that he’s not there with me, felt that he left me.
On today’s reading:
The tender voice came again and said, I love you, you know that I will always love you, I will never leave you, I know your problems, do not worry, I will put all of your problems in fix... tomorrow! Then, I cried... cried... and cried...
I was afraid that He will not do what he said by tomorrow.
My faith is so small, you can barely see it. Sometimes I think I never have a faith since it’s so small in me. But God do not see that as a measure. He just sees my dirty and unworthy heart, and He took my heart with no disgust but with a very happy and joyous heart of Him. And to confirm that He gave me this picture...
On the Communion:
I saw a father hold his child on his arms. He put his left arm under the child’s bottom so he can hold her close to his body and he put his right hand cover the child’s back and put his right arm on his child’s head. I cried... And He said... Now you see that I always do the same way to you my child... Believe Me... I cried.
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Now:
Now I know why do I have to go to the church every Sunday... Just to understand, to know, and to love Him better... And to accept my blessings...
Thank you... I say amen to You that You will fix everything by tomorrow... Thank You...
Haleluya, terpujilah Tuhan!