I’M STILL HURT

It’s been a month since my last pain in my heart. But still the pain is there. Wait, maybe it’s not the pain it’s anger. I don’t know. Why do we feel so mad if someone has lied to us, especially someone that we really love or care about? The madness level seems like reach over the top when they lied to us. Until today I’m still hurt. I’m still angry every time I meet the person. I don’t even want to look at the face. I don’t want to talk like we used to be. I just want to stay so very away from the person. I know that I have to forgive. I know that I have to let it go. It turns out that time is the only thing that I do really need at this moment. Maybe I just should wait until I’m ready again. But for how long? A year? Or two years? Or for the rest of my life??? Hell, no! At some points I know that I have to solve the main problem. I have to talk to the person and told the person that the person has hurt me. For a month I’ve been waiting for the person to realize by the person’s own that the person has hurt me. But I think the person never realizes it hehehe… so, maybe I’m the one who have to take the step. Sometimes we have to wound the scar to make it heal faster. In this case I’m gonna need some instruments to back me up. The most important thing is I’m gonna need the prayer-line as the medication after the re-hurting process. It’ll stop the bleeding. After that I need some positive words like preaches, supports, etc as my gauze packs and drugs. It’ll keep my wound clean and dry. Finally I need my friends as my food intake and my source of vitamins. They’ll keep my healthy wound tissues grow faster. Oh, one last thing, I think I need the betadine too. And that is you, pray for me please!

I need the anesthesiologist here!!!...