FINALLY

Stupid question: “Have you ever been in love?”
Me? For the last 31 years of my life I never knew of the feeling of being in love. Hehe, sounds like a crazy & stupid lie huh? Well, that was what really happened. This morning I finally knew, actually maybe the right word is understood, of that feeling. I found it funny that it’s true that we’re gonna be the stupidest person when we’re in love. All those things that have been said by the people whom are in love are true. I have become the most ridiculous person in this world, on my own world actually hehe… like yesterday, I was desperately and badly missed my love so much so it made me think to jump on my car and drive all the way long just to see that person’s face. And I did. Gosh, I’m insane. I used to be so lazy to drive. Another craziness; is that I want to make my loved one happy, as if I want to buy the world just to make my love happy. I don’t want my love to be sick, hurt, feel sad, mad, bad, etc, etc… I want to be near my love all the time; I want to hear my loved one’s laughter, giggles, see the wrinkles on the eye’s corner when my love is laughing. I want to hug, to hold, to walk together forever and ever. And spend the rest of my life with my loved one. And what makes me happy most is especially I wanted to hear my love saying: I love you too, Kees. And after that I will hug my love so close until the warm of our love hold us closer and make the time stop.
Today I thank God for giving me all of these whole new experiences. Why? Because again I finally knew the way He feels about me! He is so deeply in love in me and His love for me made Him died. I used to think that yeah I know that He died for me; I used to say I love You Lord with all my heart, and bla bla bla… but actually I never meant it. And now, I finally understand. And I don’t think I have reached that kind of loving.
I guess I’m in love with You too, Lord…