EVIL ME

I am a bad person! I am an evil! And here’s why. This afternoon a guy came to my clinic, he wanted to treat his right foot from of a nail-punctured wound. He got wounded 2 days ago at his workplace. He works at a construction site. The wound was swollen and infected because of the late treatment. The main problem was that this guy didn’t bring enough money. What did I do then? NOTHING. Instead of treated him I turned him down just because I don’t want to make my boss get mad at me for the less-charge bill. My clinic is a very expensive place to get a healthcare. If you don’t have at least Rp.200.000. - then don’t even think to come. After that I felt like a racist, I felt like I’ve become a go-away-you-poor-people-I-don’t-want-to-see-you kinda guy, and I felt so very bad for myself. Because I still can help the guy & cover the rest of the bill on me. Or I can treat his wound and give a prescription so he can buy the medicine at another drugstore. But I didn’t’ do it all. I didn’t want to use my money for him or even think some ways to help him solve the problem. I fled. I ran away from the problem. I didn’t want to move from my safe place. I was chicken out. I was too afraid to say to my boss & told him that he’s wrong.
And then the guy left, with a big smile, and said: “Thank you so much doc”. I knew it was his sincere thanks. His eyes said it. I tried to reply him with my very best smile which actually was very bitter and hurt.

To Arip, I am so sorry…