THE ENEMY

Lately, I’ve been in a place where I have to help the person that I’m very very disappointed with. To be honest or if I want to say yes to my feeling I don’t want to help H. My very very disappointed heart still hurts. Every thing that H did, to my understanding H was doing it just to attract attention & care. In a simple way, H was faking it. Somehow my disappointed heart spoke to me in a very weak voice, almost like a very gentle & unheard whisper. Help H! And suddenly, all the good things that H has done for me rushed back into my memories. They’re warmed my heart. The next thing I knew was I’m helping H. Maybe it’s against my feeling and I wasn’t doing it with all my heart but still I did it anyway. Till now I still don’t know why I was doing it, maybe I was doing it for my heart. Maybe I was doing it just to be a better man. Or maybe I was doing it because... I was made FROM LOVE and TO LOVE.

All I know that my heart speaks to me again with that gentle voice. My heart said… thank you! To H, I am so sorry. I am trying to love you just the way you are…

Now, I’m trying to fight my worst enemy… me!