LIFE’S PURPOSE?

Can you answer that? If you ask me the question, I don’t think I can give you the answer right away. Next question, why does God send us human into this weird world? For the last 17 years of my life, I still couldn’t figure it out.
At first, I thought we all live in this world is just to wait our time to die. And then the thought grew, I thought we live in this world is to get educated, get a beautiful girlfriend, get married, have kids, grow old in happiness, and finally die and go to heaven. Hmmm, sounds good right? But on my second quarter of life I began to think that we all live just because we have to, so what about it? It means, if we didn’t do anything good or beneficial to others then our lives mean nothing. So I thought, we have to make our lives more valuable and meaningful.
And now, the thought grows older and hopefully wiser too. I think we all were being sent to live in this world is because…
We have to bring love to this weird world…

CHRIST FLASH

It’s been a few weeks since my last log-on to my blog. It’s because I’ve changed my internet provider. Yup, I’m using Telkomsel Flash now hehe… Thanks to Telkomsel 3G coverage that has cover my area now. It’s great to have a quite fast internet connection. I can connect anytime & anywhere. As usual this 3G thing also made me think about my relationship with my family, friends and Him. Until now I think I still haven’t upgraded my connection. I’m still using the GPRS instead of HSDPA. My connection is so slow, very unstable, easily interrupted, and lots of disconnections! When people including Him try to ‘download’ thru me, my system is usually on a ‘very down’ situation. It’s hard to connect to me. On the other side it’s totally different if I want to ‘upload’. It’s always fast and secure but it usually ends up with damaging ‘the heart’ of the system. In other words, I’m selfish. A while ago I had this uncomfortable feeling to my nurses; they were very annoying that day. I didn’t know why, maybe they’re having their periods. It was so annoying till it made me think to ‘duck’ with them. My connection was down that day. And then I realized (again? Hehe…), what the heck am I thinking? I can’t be this way. I can do better. So, I passed that day in a relief. But… I forgot one thing. Him, God. I forgot that if I want to have a good connection for others I have to connect to the best ‘Server’ ever, the G(od) network. That is the Christ Flash.

Connecting…

ALLAHU AKBAR

When I spent my night at my clinic yesterday, I let my window open so I can hear the sounds of nature. And that night has become a perfect sleep for me after not have perfect sleeps for days. What made it even better was when I woke up at dawn & heard the adzan subuh. That was the most beautiful male voice that sang adzan I’ve ever heard. And I miss God. That dawn was so silent, only crickets, a few cars, some dog's barks, the air con, the adzan, and my breath. My tears fallen. I miss him, that dawn I felt so close to Him as if He's lying next to me.
Faint but also strong the adzan said, Allahu Akbar, means God Almighty. You are God, You are.

I miss to dance with Him again; I miss the laugh, the hug, the look, and everything.
Allahu akbar, Allahu akbar, how great Thou art o' God...